Tuesday, July 31, 2012


Sail with me tonight
We really got to get away
The stars are for us tonight
The moonlight lights up your face,
Put on some Bob Marley on the player
You know he be playing our song

*Urbandub song

Monday, July 30, 2012

hard to find

Betrayal is probably the most hurtful thing one could do. It surpasses indifference, even hatred. It is the voluntary act of abuse of confidence and planned actions that make it perverse. It is so vile, even hardened generals detest it.

I wonder why I feel neither hatred nor contempt nor hate. I feel nothing. At all.


On another note, although not totally unconnected, I thank the people who endure me, and with me. Not too close to suffocate, not too far to be distant. I know I never talk about this period of drowning, but I also know you feel it, and I am sorry if you have been burdened, though you might be willing.


Friends are hard to find.

Monday, July 16, 2012


Warning: Whining.

As much as I don't want to emit negative vibes from this blog, there is certain comfort in pouring out thoughts in an unresponsive computer, with an apathetic feeling toward this pathetic attitude of mine. There is comfort in knowing that I am not unduly burdening anyone with my whining and my sulking, except trashing the internet with my trash.

I feel my energy sucked out of me. Maintaining optimism is tiresome, especially when I cannot figure how is it that I could not have it easy. Enough with the talk that "at least you'll be a stronger person". I do not want that anymore. I hate that. I just want to have some luck. Rest. For me and my family. Peace of mind. Comfort.

I am tired of forcing the perspective that my life is better than others. Could I just now take the normal view, that how is it that my life sucks than those of others? That there is much I do not have, and much that I have lost? Time. How can I bring back time?

Shouting in silence is confining. When I walk in the street or in corridors, I could not even put a fake smile. I could not even hide that "I am not okay!" This is what I get for fooling myself.

I am sorry. I am just tired. And disappointed. Time and again.

Sunday, July 15, 2012


There seems to be a lingering feeling of sadness inside me for days now. I couldn't shake it off. I've been trying to "drop" this feeling by watching TV or doing anything so I would stop thinking, feeling, I am sad. I thought that maybe, if I write it here, if I tell this blog that "hey, I am sad..." I might finally release this sadness inside.

5... 4... 3... 2...

Friday, July 13, 2012

black and white (almost)

I shared this picture as well in my own blog. But I just can't let go of the beauty of the picture I can see in here. It looks so laid back (probably because of the conservative color), and yet, so modern (in the sense that the picture shows an industrialized scene. Either way, I feel like NatGeo will soon contact me and commission me to make some photoshoots for them. Or perhaps some commercial giants will reproduce this pic for their picture frames for dad's day or something. Hehehe.

Libre mangarap. :-)


Have you seen DOST's Project NOAH (Nationwide Operational Assessment of Hazards) already? It's a website giving all sorts of weather and other related information. One of the "cool features" of the site is that it tries to provide the probability of rain at any given time and any given place. I guess with a star tsp100, you can print all weather probabilities in the Philippines in just one click. Isn't that helpful?

Well, when my brother found out about this, he tried to check the site one time. It said there is about 40-50% chance of rains in his area. He said he won't overcompensate, so, he'll bring about 50% of his umbrella to work. :-D


In case you are wondering, this corny guest-post is from Eks. :-)

what's next -- soul for computers?

This is your last chance. After this, there is no turning back. You take the blue pill – the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe. You take the red pill – you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the rabbit-hole goes.
Google teaching computers to mimic human brain
Agence France-Presse

SAN FRANCISCO—Google on Tuesday said it was dabbling with getting  computers to simulate the learning process of the human brain as one of the unusual projects for researchers in its X Lab.

Computers programmed with algorithms intended to mimic neural  connections “learned” to recognize cats after being shown a sampling of  YouTube videos, Google fellow Jeff Dean and visiting faculty Andrew Ng  said in a blog post.

“Our hypothesis was that it would learn to recognize common objects in those videos,” the researchers said.

“Indeed, to our amusement, one of our artificial neurons learned to respond strongly to pictures of… cats,” they continued.

“Remember that this network had never been told what a cat was, nor was it given even a single image labeled as a cat.”

The computer, essentially, discovered for itself what a cat looked like, according to Dean and Ng.

The computations were spread across an “artificial neural network” of 16,000 processors and a billion connections in Google data centers.

The small-scale “newborn brain” was shown YouTube images for a week to see what it would learn.

“It ‘discovered’ what a cat looked like by itself from only unlabeled YouTube stills,” the researchers said.

“That’s what we mean by self-taught learning.”

Google researchers are building a larger model and are working on ways to apply the artificial neural network approach to improve technology for speech recognition and natural language modeling,
according to Dean and Ng.

“Someday this could make the tools you use every day work better, faster, and smarter,” they said.

Dean and Ng conceded that there is a long road ahead, since an adult human brain has around 100 trillion connections.

Google X Lab headed by company co-founder Sergey Brin is known for  its work on innovations such as a self-driving car and “Terminator” film  style glasses that provide Internet information about what is being  seen.

From Inquirer


Google made it big once again! This invention is not as if it's just another Manitowoc ice maker of sorts -- this is a thinking software. Have you decided which pill to take when the time comes? Hehehe.

This is Eks, writing a guest-post for Mordsith. Thanks, Mordsith!