Wednesday, September 19, 2012

my timeline

For years now, my friends and acquaintances are getting married or going there. And for the last two weddings, I had been the person who got, more like forced to get, the bride's bouquet. Of course, I was not happy about it -- not because I don't want to get married, but because I hate being the center of attention (with people "wishing" I'd be next!).

I might as well be the epitome of the ever-famous "always the bridesmaid, never the bride" line. I'd be lying if I say it never occurred to me that while my friends are busy buying artsy craft supplies in fancy malls, I am busy borrowing boring bulky books from an old library. But really, it has not gotten to me yet, especially that I have no one to plan a wedding with.

I think my life has been designed to have an abnormal timeline. I took on responsibility for my two sick parents and our lives earlier than most people, specifically, than most of my friends. While they've been enjoying trips here and there, I have been, well, not. And now, when I entered school again, I mingled with people much younger than I am. Although law school is far more serious than college, still, I hang around with kids. I guess that's life's way of making up for my "lost" time as a youth. It's not as enjoyable as I would have wanted it to, but life with the people around me is not as serious as that of the people my age -- mostly it's about law, law, law, boyfriends/girlfriends, friends, party, and law.

I will not say that I would not want my life any other way, but I guess I just have to do things in my own timeline.


witsandnuts said...

No it's not an abnormal timeline, but a more special designed timeline. I think I have one, too. ;)

docgelo said...

i say, our timelines are unique as our lives. abnormal? perhaps, haywire sometimes, lol! :)